Okay, yeah, that is heartbreaking on the books. My condolences.

I'm also sorry to hear the kids are still tough to get to help - my almost-5 year old is mostly cheerful to help still, and my almost-1 year old smiles while she throws things on the floor. What I'm saying is it might be too early for me to be expressing my confidence here. Oh, also, I don't have any boys, and I hear that's a whole other ballgame.

Yeah, that's rough, how much they pick up just from watching us be ourselves. I find that both the most reassuring and most terrifying part of parenting.

At any rate, if you'll have them, my best wishes for your ongoing success in the struggle!